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H prwth fora pou thn eida itan mesa se kosmo, den tin anagnwrisa an k imun siguri oti emena koituse me ena diaperastiko vlemma prokalwntas mou ena paraxeno rigos stin raxokokalia, me giroferne olo to vradi san kalokairino aeraki,den imun sigurh ti ithele, ligo meta sineidhtopohsa oti den koitusa kanena, oi ixoi enswmatwthikan se ena sinexomeno vuito k ta panta stathikan se mia paraxeni paush kai gw se ena tixaio ekei, anametrithikame antikrista antamwthikame gia prwth fora. Meta xekinise na me episkeptete mono vradia, panta akalesth arxika, meta mou egine exartisiogonos sinitheia! Parolo pou me ekane na aisthanome toso asxima kathe fora pote mou den pistepsa pws ithele to kako mou, imun sigurh pws apla egw den mporusa na antilifthw auta pou eixe na mou pei kai oti se kapoia alli fash tha erxotan to minima ston egkefalo mou estw kai kathisterimena. Meta giname kollites, me akoluthuse pantu kapote pisw mou kapote plai mou, aeraki kalokairino sto sterno mu... Eniwtha enoxes pou den eix...

Apopse den tha koimithume m fainete(egw kai oi idees m) afou ta oistrogona mou fainete vriskontai sto zenith tu kiklu tus! Sto pio katw keimeno anaferthika sto olokliro to aylo kai thn agaph, simera sto dromo apo douleia skeutomun pws mporw na antilamvanome na katalavainw kai na tolmw na aisthanome pws niwthw oti agapw anthwpus tus opoius ousiastika den gnwrizw. Sinexisa ton sillogismo mou diasxizwntas to emporiko tu metro sto kampi agnowntas tin enoxlitikh mou allergia kai to farmakeio sto opoio eprepe na stamatisw alla en pash periptwsh  i kopmpresa me xamomili einai mia kali kai ftinh enallaktikh gia mia afirhmenh oneiropola sto anoixiatiko helsinki! Kapou prin na mpw sto metro eniwsa pws vrethika konta sthn lisi vazwntas oles tis filosofies kai thriskeies katw(oses gnwrizw dld) me koinh sinistwsa thn agaph.  An ipothesume oti to anwtato olwn einai i agaph i anthrwpinh mou ontotita den mporei na isxirizete pws agapa oloklirwtika afu o thimos o ponos i anasfaleia kai al...

Logariasmoi, noiki, reuma, kela, thesis draft, grammatiki, jocking, supermarket, kathariotites, ikea, vivliothiki- vivlia, duleia, dwro, diatrofi, nosokomeio, farmakeio, mpogies, sxedia, oneira  ... kataxwniasmeni stin ateleiwti mou lista prospathwntas gia alli mia fora na efarmosw to '' i proolipsi einai i kaliteri therapeia" h' alliws :can't help it I am a control freak, grafw listes kai arxeiothetw tin kathimerinotita m kanwntas xwro sta oneira mou. H apegnwsmeni prospatheia m na xalinagwgisw tin anisixeia k valw freno stin anasfaleia m taktopoihwntas to agxos mou vriskei diexodo sta kitrina post it k se arithmus!  H alitheia einai oi listes einai panta xrisimes gia na thimase ta pragmata pou exeis na kaneis kai g na mpainei i kathimerinotita su taxi alla kamia lista den mporei na allaxei kanena einai! H pragmatikotita einai auth pou einai kai oi listes diaxeirizontai auto to einai epifaniaka. H epilogh ousiastika den afora to ti einai alla to pws eisai esi m...

Xaraktires paranoikos 1, 2, orka kai afigitis. Eswteriko/ vradi/ 4.5 os orofos siwpi nikta melagxoliki garidakia mpiskota sokolates kotopulo ala kinezex mpiskota sokolatas sto kapaki k sapimeno mu misofagwmeno mac pou mu kaneis tin zwi mu diskoli me tus ius k t skulikia su! ust! Apotomo anoigma portas!Tsup mpainei mesa o trelos mou sifunas tarassontas tin psixiki mou paranoiki galini! Spartara sta xaxana xaxa kai xuxuxu logodiareia formula 1 xaxanita xekardistika. to kathe XA antanaklatate se kathe orofo tis gerontikis mas isixeias! XA sthn 4h xipnate gerontudia roomie is on the house jooooo eeee oooo to pirame to pirame to eurwpaiko!! P2 (xa stin 4h kai mia paraxeni pausi koitwntas to fwtistiko tis eisodu! fridi panw gkrimatsa no 1: (eemm??) P1 O paranoikos xaraktiras strivei to kefali elafrws dexia menei apxaunwmenos se stasi "stin idia stasi edw k wres"-me to misofagwmeno milo agkalia- tin texnologiki proektasi tu xeriu t aporimenos omologa: -Tromaxa...

Kassandra skoteino mou mixanaki kalokairino aeraki sto parkaki kathomaste se ena pagkaki plisiazei i diavoloexetastiki pia imun egw pia isun esi krivomaste se skoteino skokaki psaxnume ton ilio se miso feggaraki efivikes anazitiseis iparxiakes ateleiwtes sizitiseis. Latremeno palio mu mixanaki prwtoi mas erwtes dakria kai aeraki Distixo xaragmeno se karfitsaki tixero mou magiko skalaki! Stin agapimeni mou fili anna! 15 xronia gela puli mou gela! 

Ena miden ipervoliko kai ena allo daneiko kilisan gia ligo san troxoi to ena vrike mia klwsth mperdeutikan den eixe telos ute arxh pote san filoi pote san extroi to oktw karadokei to ena fwnaze gh to allo vroxh den eixe telos h arxh apokoimithikan se oktw xipnisan se apeiro skoteino to ena fwnaxe vroxh to allo fwnaze gh geiwse thn astraph ta dio miden xwristikan oktw skies fovithikan sto apeiro xana skorpistikan. a.n

Koitaw ton pinaka S vagoni gate 15  anaxwrishsh se 15 lepta, exw arketo xrono alla trexw giati kriwnw xarizwntas etsi ston eauto mou to pronomio ths epiloghs mias kalhs theshs- me tis ligoteres pithanotites koinwnikopoihshs- teleutaia grammi, thesh parathiro apo tin pleura pou ktipa o hlios apenanti se diplo kathisma me plath thn enoxlitikh porta pou ktipa adexia. Topothetw sto diplano kathisma tin strumpouli mou tsanta gemati lixudies kai pasxalina louloudia me tin elpida pws den tha thelei kaneis na thn sikwsei gia na kathisei...Music me sta autia kai xekiname... Anamniseis kai xrwmata mperdeuontai, grammes kai sinaisthimata anamigniontai, h apousia ginete ousia kai h ousia exousia.  Ola thola ki ola xekathara sinerxome peristasiaka na sigureutw oti eimai sto swsto vagoni kai to fws sto proswpo mou einai o hlios kai den oneireuome.  "To swsto vagoni".. mia anadromikh erwthsh pou me paresernei se ena sineirmiko paixnidi paromoiwsewn, apo auta pou latreuw na fti...

Xipnisa kai xehasa sta oneira mou mou tin anasa, tis aisthiseis tin matia mou. Xipnisa kai xehasa sta oneira mou tin psixi mou tin kardia mou. Otan mpaineis sta oneira mou ximerwnei h nikta stin kathimerinotita mou. Otan mpaineis sta oneira mou i paush skepazei ola ta pragmata mou den vriskw ta kleidia h paush krivei tin skia mou. Antikrista stekomaste kai den milame. Oi psixes mas siwpila polemane. Antikrista sinantiomaste kai den milame Oi psixes mas tautoxrona misane k agapane. Zitw siggnwmi auto einai oti exei apomeinei zitas euthini pou den exw akoma figei apla iparxw edw kai xedipsw me oti exei meinei. stekomaste antkrista koitiomaste apo poli makria xodepsa polla den exei meinei tipota pia apla yparxw xwris skia. Zitw siggnwmi pou xehastika edw zitw siggnwmi pou katoikw se xeno paron Antikrista kai pali antikrista ta matia sou len polla aperantos thimos xwris lalia den fovame den exw na xasw tipota pia. a.n

5.30  kai h mera xekinise mwv xrwmatismenos o oyranos  o xronos kanei thn paush toy edw prospernw epikefalides koitazw pligwmenes patrides mwv selides pinela kai nerompogies se xevammenes zwgrafies barcode BSV blood sex and violence  ola timh mish xepoulimenes apo ktes pontarw stis alles mises Deja vou  ena psalidi mia klwsti ena karuli pou thelei na xetiliktei ena cut kai ena delete allazei h pragmatikotita morfh menei h alitheia h mish Mish patrida mish  mish zwh feygw thelw na zisw kai thn allh mish! psaxnw tin krimmeni phgh. Apisth psyxh  daneikh zwh  h epikefalida plastelinh kerdoskopikh stekome stin allh mish thn 'perastikh' Otan xypnaw koitaw mwv  kai pinnw diafanes nero koitaw to ypoloipo miso apisth tha parameinw  gia oso zw austhra axiologw me to miso den xedipsw! a.n