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Apagoreuete na aisthanome na skeutome na fantazome apagoreuete na katrakilw se sinaisthimatiko authormitismo apagoreuete na milw k na lew auto pou exw sto mialo apagoreute moni na gelw giati plathw istories sto metro moni mu na milw na tragudw na xoropidw apagoreuete mono se sena na thelw na milw mono me sena na filosofw apagoreuete! sou tarazw ton orthologismo. Apagoreuete na zw mono me sokolata kai gliko apagoreuete me to kalamaki na rufw kai to teleutaio pagaki na trow patatakia kai na glifw kai ta 10 daktilakia na anoigw to sakuli kai na psaxnw stin gwnitsa to teleutaio psixuli. Na koimame i wra 5 kai na xipnw sto para 5 na trexw gia tin duleia xwris athlitika na pernw me kokkino fanari makari na eixa ferrari. Apagoreuete na xodeuw kai na min exw gia to treno na menw nikta xwris mpataria aneuthini eisai stin fillandia! apagoreuete na kathisterw stis episkepseis giati egrafa sto blog mu skepseis. apagoreuete na min diavazw kai sto youtube na remvazw apagoreu...

Jo! Fight or die! Dikia su einai i zwi esi tin orizeis dikia sou i psixi esi tin kathorizeis! Min afineis tus allus na klevun xoroxrono apo tin skepsi su adika, min aminese d arkei perna stin epithesi an xreiastei g den exun oi anthrwpoi oria mono perithwria! Den linete ? Eutixws p kovete! Mia einai i mpala kai einai sta xeria sou min tin xariseis se kanena den exeis xrono! Ti exeis na xaseis stin xeiroteri periptwsi ta panta? Let it be! Meta ti tha ginei? Tha sinexiseis na anapneeis tha sinexizeis na stekese katw apo ton ilio na exeis dio matia dio xeria 10 nixia, 5 trixes na kurepseis se oti stil theleis, dio podia gia na trexeis oso makria theleis kai to panemorfo tipota- i apoliti eleutheria! Exeis stathei pote katw apo ton ilio kratwntas to apolito tipota? Exeis stathei stin mesi tu dasus agkomaxwntas apo to apolito  tpt pu etrexes mia zwh na figeis? e? exeis xaplwsei panw sta kimmata esi kai to tpt sou xamogelwntas apo anakufisi pou ola teliwsan kai akoma epipleeis!!!? Eina...

Se thimithika kai ton eauto mou pali fovithika se thimithika kai ta oneira mou ola arnithika me ta lathi mou apo tin arxi anametrithika den tha mathw pote anarwtithika se thimithika pali me fws koimithika me ena roloi anametrithika tik tak sto parelthon mu tik tak kai sto paron mou Rwtisa to feggari poso akoma tha mou parei koitaxa kai ton toixo na eixe i siwph sou hxo tik tak ktipan oi xronoi parea mou oi dikoi mou fovoi Tik tak mes to mialo mou taktopoiw tin skepsi to egw mou krata esi to  parelthon mou kai ase to mellon sto paron mou. a.n

Na tan petra i skia stin thalassa na rixw na tan floga i monaxia stin thallasa na svisw na tan sporos i skia sto xwma na akumpisw lulludi na ginei na mporw na to moirisw na tan tragudi i monaxia na mporw na tragudisw na tan porta i skia na mporw na tin gkremmisw. Krimmeni monaxia sto idio vagoni leuki skia mou panw sto xioni. a.n

Skepi mou tholi skepsi mou trelli skepsi monaxiki toso paranoiki trexeis kai den se ftanw feugeis kai se xannw den proftainw na milisw na se piasw na se stamatisw pws na se siwpisw skepsi mou trrelli skepsi mou monaxiki min me afineis pisw perimene me thelw na milisw trexw ma den se ftanw kolimpas kai pato pianw esi petas kai egw olo peftw den proftanw xanapesto skepsi mou tholi skepsi monaxiki skepsi skoteini perimene me exw kai gw fwni. a.n

Ti perimeneis? Ton Odissea apantise..  den xekinise kan? Ti ennoeis den xekinise afou milisame sto facebook kai katalava pws evale plwri! Mipws xehastike sto podosfairo kai stis mpires me tus kollitus tu? Mipws tous xemialisan oi seirines oi paliotsules? H' Mipws pige stin mana tou na faei? Xerw apokoimithike sto grafeio!  Pou einai giati den erxete? Koitaxe trigirw kai sineidhtopoihse pws vriskotan panw sto karavi gia tin Ithaki xwris auton perimenwntas auton, tripia pania kai se athlia katastasi to karavi anti gia plirwma eixe tis kollites tis pou epaizan mpirimpa! H Pinelopi tis plisazei-koritsia yposiazome oti vouliazoume, ta koritsia afisan me mias tin mpirimpa i mia pire to timoni i alli anevike stin kupasti! "Eimaste stin mesi tou puthena xekiniste na mpalwnete pania!" H pilelopi diatazei na parun sto scype ton odissea na tous pei ti na kanoun! kamia den tolmise toso kairo na tis pei oti akoma na gennithei kai pws logw tiletheasis xekinise to paramithi xwris auton...

Oi thermokrasies exoun anaivei, t magazia gemisan me anoixiatika, to aeraki xaideuei glika kai mia ypopsia anoixis me flertarei ston dromo psithirizwntas mou- kairos gia jocking -i pinelopi den mporei na perimenei allo spiti! Egkainiazw to kainurio mou ftouter, akustika sta autia, agapimena athlitika kai xekiname gia to xionodromiko parko, exei toso kairo pou to prospernw kai perimenw na ftiaxei o kairos gia na to exereunisw kai na pou to teleio timing  eftase , oi skier exun figei kai oi anoixiatikoi jocker akoma na xekinisun- tha perihgithw sto dasos opws m aresei -eleutheri kai moni!  Rolling stones "she is hot" kai i porwsi na ktipa kokkino trexw me oli mou tin dinami  san ena skili pou to xoun amolisei se anoikti pediada! Xairome toso, pou poli tha ithela na eixa oura na kouna trella gab gab... H skia m omws me prodwnei pws eimai monaxa mia trellh pou jocko-xoreuei sto siwpilo dasos! Sovareuw filandika mazeuontas to mesogeiako authormitismo m pou xehithike se fi...

Den katalavaineis pws den fovame na ektethw d fovame na fwnaxw simera se agapw kai se misw analogws apo pia pleura tha koimithw. Den katalavaineis, an den to pw tha trelathw trello sinaisthima poy me ektoxeuei sto keno me auto parea zw pws na min trellathw? Den katalavaineis pws i ipervoli einai i pio pisti mou kolliti den tin polisimpathw alla me kanei na gelw Einai kai mia alli fantasia exasrtisiogonos epikindini usia Den katalavaineis alla einai poli aplo otan exeis kollito ton paidiko su eauto den antexeis na zeis se thorikto trwgwntas igihno fagito Den fovame na ektethw auta mou irthan sto mialo giati na min ta moirastw? Bonne Nuit! a.n

Thalassa apopse thelw na ginw almira kai kimata na pinnw katw apo to feggari xrisoskoni rigmeni sto skotadi Thalassa thelw na ginw toixos na min me orizei o anemos mono na me nanurizei Kimata tha einai ta malia mou glaroi ta dakria mou Koxilia , oi skepseis, sfragismena ston vitho moy xehasmena Thalassa thelw apopse na ginw eleutheria mono na pinw apo sena na xefigw. Thalassa tha ginw  kathe vradi sta kimata na se svinw! a.n

Den yparxoun mises patrides den yparxoun mises elpides den yparxoun mises kardies pou xemeinan se erhmies den yparxei mish steria, mish thalassa, mish fwtia den yparxei mish grothia san nero na svinei na katrakila Sikwse thn thalassa an tolmas des pws einai na xedipsas xerizwse thn kardia niwse na kaigese apo fwtia stathou sto ypsos mias grothias mhn xehaseis pws einai na ponas Giati, den yparxei mish kardia mish alitheia mish fwtia mish patrida  mish leuteria miso feggari miso monopati den yparxei to allo miso mono to anameso kai an misos niwtheis esy einai pou den xwrizeis oti se misei. a.n

Poses fores sas exei tyxei na ktypate sto idio shmeio poy exete xanaktypjsei akoma kai an ayto exei thn mikrh epifaneia enos nyxiou! Mhpws h plhgh einai aytonomos kai kyriarxh dynamh poy askei panw sto swma sas exoysia antitheth sthn thelhsh sas? Ligo prin na threpsei mia plhgh h agwnia toy swmatos pws tha meinei xwris skopo xekina ena anelehto flert saghneyontas ton kyndyno, proskalwntas ena kainoyrio pono poy tha dwsei ena neo logo yparxhs, mias neas elpidas, ena neo kyndyno pros apofyghn me ena neo stoxo enos swmatos poy tha anapneei xwris ayton?  Kapoia pragmata ponane poly perissotero apo alla kai kapoies symptwseis einai poly pio tragikes apo ena aplo komati pswmi me margarinh poy peftei panta apo thn antitheth pleyra. Kapote ena koyrema den einai arketo gia na diwxei oles tis skepseis apo to kefali,  kapote ena savatokiriako me kapsoytragoyda,  pitzamoxoyzoyrema kai sokolatotherapeia den arkei gia empneush enos paramythiou poy tha dikaiologei ta magnhtika fainomen...

Ta oria einai gia na ta xepernoyme! H' oxi? Poia arrwstimenh emmonh einai auti poy odhgei ton anthrwpo na thelei na xeperasei ta oria toy kai twn allwn apokalyptwntas tis antoxes toy idioy kai twn allwn? Einai anasfaleia h' aplh paranoia? Mporw na antexw, thelw omws? Kai an nai isws ayto na einai poio arrwstimeno apo ayton poy me dokimazei? An omws to arrwstimeno den arwstainei kanena pws dikaiologhte to vaptisma toy? Mhpws ta syptwmata toy emfanizontai poli arga apla kai  mexri tote den eisai kai toso normal g na katalaveis tin diafora?Apo tin allh kai thn pio normal zwh na kaneis mporeis eykola  na vretheis mia mera tiligmenos me ena leyko pani kai apo katw na min exei apotrixwtiko keri alla ena xapakwmeno swma! Anamesa se ola ayta h pisth ti rolo paizei? Oso kai to happy end se ena paramithi! Telika to symperasma poio einai giati sigxistika? Mallon sto thelw! Den tithete thema an antexeis h oxi alla an theleis na antexeis? Des ta lathh soy kai anarwthsoy... a.n

Mia fora kai ena kairo stamathsan ta paramythia. H mera stamathse na niktwnei k h nikta na ximerwnei. Oi dromoi gemisan me terata kai oi psixes skotadi. O hlios tiflwne k h vroxi trypuse.  Ta lulludia gemisan agkathia k oi thalasses furtunes. H sanida tou nauagoy sapise kai to alexiptwto toy stratiwti den anoige.O astronautis emeine gia panta sto feggari kai h aliki vrethike ston adh. To vagoni ektroxiastike k to aeroplano olo epefte. Ta stomata den eixan milia kai h matia eikona. H kardia marantike kai o erwtas katadikasthke. Mia fora kai ena kairo stamatisan ta paramithia ta paidia den mporusan na koimithun k oi megaloi na dun alitheia. a.n

Perpatw sta leyka kellogs apolamvanwntas toys traganistous hxous pou afinw sto perasma mou...eimai edw, me u2 k red hot chilli peppers sta autia, kati apo ton efhviko moy eayto sta malia kai ena erwta sthn akrh twn vlefarwn mou -to mono pou leipei einai ligos aeras na skorpisei ta paidika oneira mou k h mirwdia ths venzinhs apo to efhviko moy mhxanaki thn kassandra. Kai omws shmera den moy leipei tipota oso k an exw synhthisei na mou leipei panta kati! Eimai edw kai aisthanome oti auton ton kradasmo katw apo ta podia mou auton ton hxo sta autia mou, auto to fterougisma sthn kardia mou authn thn anhsyxeia sto kefali mou kai thn agwnia sthn psyxh mou, pws ola ta exw euxhthei toso palia pou eixa xehasei pou ta ekripsa! Pws eprepe na gemisw ena olokliro mpaoulo me daneika oneira gia na anakalipsw pws kratousa to lathos kleidi. Pws to adeiasma htan meros ths diadikasias gia na anakalipsw thn palia mou skonismeni euxh. Swthria! "To shmera einai to aurio pou euxhthikes xthes" Kalo ...

Apopse thelw na milisw gia tin poyles moy, oxi aytes poy trww kai paxainw edw stin filandia alla tis agapimenes moy files se kypro kai ellada! Giati apopse exw diathesh gia eyxaristeies! Xekiname loipon...  Tis eyxaristw pou an kai makria einai dipla moy kai katafernoyn na me  kanoyn na gelw mexri dakrywn, p oy geloun me ta dika mou asteia akoma otan den einai toso... kai panta exoun mia ataka na prosthesoun.  Tis euxaristw pou me anektikan ypomonetika ton teleytaio xrono, me perimazepsan, me filoxenhsan stin pio zesth toys gwnia kai me xastoykisan otan xreiasthke. Tis eyxaristw pou me afinoun na tis pernw voltes mexri na teliwsei h venzinh, tis eyxaristw poy m dixnoyn oti h gnwmh moy metra gia aytes kanwntas me na niwthw shmantikh. Tis eyxaristw pou pisteyan se mena otan egw den pisteya se kanena, poy den stamathsan na moy ypenthimizoyn ton kalo moy eayto kai moy me empneoyn na thelw na ginome kaliterh! Tis eyxaristw poy moy exoyn paraxwrisei mia gwnitsa sthn skepsh k...

Diasxizwntas thn polh, perpatwntas panw sto teleutaio xioni pou exei apomeinei mia mikrh 8lipsh sximatistike kai perpatise mazi mou psi8irizwntas mou to mistiko ths - pws fovatai to xioni pou xanete! Xamogelasa giati to eixa skeutei prwth! To xioni xanete ka8hmerina, svinei apo thn ka8hmerini diadromi mu, apo ton dromo mou , ton pisto ayto kavaliero sthn melwdia twn skepsewn mou kai den mporw na kanw tipota giayto giati etsi einai h fysh- etsi einai h zwh. Kai enw loipon o dromos mou fwnaze anoixh h 8lipsh pou perpatouse dipla mou fwnaze mhn feugeis ypenthimizwntas mou ola auta pou xe-feugun! Kati tetoies stigmes ais8anome pws xoflw enw den xrwstw alla exw adiko giati einai 8ema antilipshs kai optikhs gwnias. Epistrefw apofasismenh spiti na epivlithw ths allaghs me ena psalidi kai mia vafh! O dromos eixe thn dikh tou istoria kapoios thn ekopse sto spiti me mpogia! To apotelesma den ti8ete fysika dimosieushs an kai exei plaka! Epomenws h fwtografia panw dexia einai plewn paraplanatikh!...

Kane oti kalitero mporeis me auta pou exeis...den exei simasia se pio ypoloipo stekese den exei shmasia pou pas, ti theleis, poious tha gnwriseis, poious tha agapiseis kai poius tha afiseis, den exei shmasia pou tha katalixeis, mono kane oti kalitero mporeis me auta pou exeis. An stekese sto ypoloipo kane tou parea mexri na ginei olokliro, an girw su vlepeis mono skotadi aplwse to katw apo ton hlio, an milas kai akus mono siwph tragudise ths mexri na sou apanthsei, an exeis mia kenh agkalia gemise thn me oneira kai anamniseis, exeis ametrhta forese ths ta kalytera! Grapse gramma sto apagoreuete, agaphse ton fovo, kalopiase ton pono, isoropise panw sthn telia kai des thn dikh sou magikh eutheia.  a.n

Ola leuka kamia skia, o ponos allaxe kardia anapnew xwris to metrima pia Zwgrafisa to miden mou sto feggari kai to gyaliza ypomonetika to vradi twra egine telia h arxh ths ipoloiphs mou poreias. Ola leuka kamia skia glikeia monaxia den fovame pou zw moni mou pia fovame pou den tha mai dipla sou xana na prosexeis na 'sai kala! a.n

Ti psaxneis? rwtise. Me enoxlei to zeugari pou kathetai dipla mou kai mila megalofwna epemvainontas stin skepsi mu me tin sizitisi tus, exontas thema ta pausipona, me enoxlei o pisw mou stis koiliomenes pou vrwmaei alkool, epemvainontas stin freskada tu malaktiku kai tu zestu mu mpaniu, me enoxlun ta kokkalakia mou pou kriwnun, epemvainontas stin zestasia pou anazitw, me enoxlei pou den mporw na aggizw ta malia mou giati foraw gantia kai ilektrizontai, epemvainontas stin eleutheria kinisis mou! Me enoxlei pou perpatw prosektika gia na min glistrisw enw viazome, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tu na min fovame! Me enoxlei pu simera exw neura logw twn skepsewn mu, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tis mi epilogis ! Me enoxlei otidipote mou thimizei oti eimai anthrwpos kai exw adinamies! Den tin paleueis gerontudi psithirizw ston eauto mou agorase mia sokolata sokolatoalkoola vale ta akustika su skase kai kolimpa! Ti psaxneis? Ti psaxnun oloi? Eimai sto vagoni! Stamata... akuw kati pou thimiz...