Ti psaxneis? rwtise.
Me enoxlei to zeugari pou kathetai dipla mou kai mila megalofwna epemvainontas stin skepsi mu me tin sizitisi tus, exontas thema ta pausipona, me enoxlei o pisw mou stis koiliomenes pou vrwmaei alkool, epemvainontas stin freskada tu malaktiku kai tu zestu mu mpaniu, me enoxlun ta kokkalakia mou pou kriwnun, epemvainontas stin zestasia pou anazitw, me enoxlei pou den mporw na aggizw ta malia mou giati foraw gantia kai ilektrizontai, epemvainontas stin eleutheria kinisis mou! Me enoxlei pou perpatw prosektika gia na min glistrisw enw viazome, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tu na min fovame! Me enoxlei pu simera exw neura logw twn skepsewn mu, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tis mi epilogis ! Me enoxlei otidipote mou thimizei oti eimai anthrwpos kai exw adinamies! Den tin paleueis gerontudi psithirizw ston eauto mou agorase mia sokolata sokolatoalkoola vale ta akustika su skase kai kolimpa!
Ti psaxneis? Ti psaxnun oloi? Eimai sto vagoni! Stamata... akuw kati pou thimizei opera alla den einai apla fantasiwnome pali, vlepw sto apenanti vagoni kati pappudes apo autus pou kathontai apla sto metro kai pigainoerxontai gia na gemizun tin kathimerinotita tus kai na apokta axia to 40eurw p exun dwsei gia tin karta diakinisis! Autos ekei me to kapelo kai tin petrol sarpa eimai siguri oti exei agorasei tin pio akrivi apo oles tis kartes me diakinisi epipedu 3 -helsinki vanta espoo KAI perixwra- gia megaliteres anazitiseis! Pou pane oloi autoi? ti anazitun apo tis zwes tus? Oloi moiazun me anazitites kai egw anamesa tus kai anamesa mu psixes makrines kai agapimenes... mia apo autes esi!10 xronia akrivws pappu se thimame sta teleutaia su na se exei gonatisei o karkinos kai na se pnigei to parapono xestomizwntas megalofwna tin frasi pou me trantaxe- ti tin ithela egw tin zwi? Emeina na se koitaw! Se poion apeuthinosun? Se auton pou erxotan na stin parei h' se auton pou stin edwse? H'perimenes apantisi apo kapoion apo emas sto dwmatio den ixera ti na apantisw- eniwsa oti eprepe na pw siggnwmi , emeina apla kai se epsaxna ma den se evlepa, evlepa mono ton karkino kai tin frikti tu opsi! Koitaxa olus tus allus sto dwmatio, kanenas den antedrase mallon kanenas den se evlepe! Meta apo dio vradia irthes kai me kamarwnes enw stoliza to dentro, krifokoitazes ...xarika pou to ekanes isun panta kirios nomizes pws den se eixa dei alla se eida, den fovithika- katalava...to epomeno prwi mou anakoinwsan oti eixes figei... simera deka xronia meta irthes episkepsi stin skepsi mou... Zise su fwnaze i psixi su sto B' pagkosmio, "Ξενή βούρα!! "se prostaxe, san antikrises to vuno me ta ptwmata! "Γιατί είμαι εγώ γέρος κόρη?", apantises stin kori su otan su eipe kateva apo to ampeli geros anthrwpos tha ktipiseis...Vlepw tus pappudes sto vagoni! Auto les na skeutuntai kai autoi? Auto tha skeutome kai egw? Ti psaxnume kai giati den to vriskume pappu?
H etuixeia ...kai poia einai auti diladi i eutixeia, ti einai poios tin dimiurgise? H etimologia tis lexis eu + tixi= kali tixi, kali tixi einai na exw 5 daktila sto kathe xeri, matia, autia kai podia pou na duleuun?Einai na exw, stegi, filus, oikogeneia? Enas anapiros, orfanos astegos, erimitis einai katadikasmenos stin mh eutixeia dld? Amfivallw! Arnume! Poio einai to metro autis kai poios to orizei? Mipws o kathenas orizei to diko tu metro? Tote giati iparxun lexeis opws metro kai sigrkisi? poios tis epinohse? Afu iparxun - ifistantai h'dihstantai?
Zwi- thanatos- eutixeia -distixeia- agapi- misos- tixi- atixia ola iparxun - tautoxrona, parallila! Poios tis gennise poios tis anathrepse, me poia eikona tis vaftise kai epeita ekripse to prwtotipo? Exei simasia ti exw telika h' ti den exw? H' eimai to ipoloipo sto opoio akrovatw? Ti esti theos ti mh theos kai ti to anameso tus- mipws peri anamesu prokeite? Mipws eimaste oloi akrovates sto anameso tu ipoloipu me koino to mikro - megalo mas keno?
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Me enoxlei to zeugari pou kathetai dipla mou kai mila megalofwna epemvainontas stin skepsi mu me tin sizitisi tus, exontas thema ta pausipona, me enoxlei o pisw mou stis koiliomenes pou vrwmaei alkool, epemvainontas stin freskada tu malaktiku kai tu zestu mu mpaniu, me enoxlun ta kokkalakia mou pou kriwnun, epemvainontas stin zestasia pou anazitw, me enoxlei pou den mporw na aggizw ta malia mou giati foraw gantia kai ilektrizontai, epemvainontas stin eleutheria kinisis mou! Me enoxlei pou perpatw prosektika gia na min glistrisw enw viazome, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tu na min fovame! Me enoxlei pu simera exw neura logw twn skepsewn mu, epemvainontas stin eleutheria tis mi epilogis ! Me enoxlei otidipote mou thimizei oti eimai anthrwpos kai exw adinamies! Den tin paleueis gerontudi psithirizw ston eauto mou agorase mia sokolata sokolatoalkoola vale ta akustika su skase kai kolimpa!
Ti psaxneis? Ti psaxnun oloi? Eimai sto vagoni! Stamata... akuw kati pou thimizei opera alla den einai apla fantasiwnome pali, vlepw sto apenanti vagoni kati pappudes apo autus pou kathontai apla sto metro kai pigainoerxontai gia na gemizun tin kathimerinotita tus kai na apokta axia to 40eurw p exun dwsei gia tin karta diakinisis! Autos ekei me to kapelo kai tin petrol sarpa eimai siguri oti exei agorasei tin pio akrivi apo oles tis kartes me diakinisi epipedu 3 -helsinki vanta espoo KAI perixwra- gia megaliteres anazitiseis! Pou pane oloi autoi? ti anazitun apo tis zwes tus? Oloi moiazun me anazitites kai egw anamesa tus kai anamesa mu psixes makrines kai agapimenes... mia apo autes esi!10 xronia akrivws pappu se thimame sta teleutaia su na se exei gonatisei o karkinos kai na se pnigei to parapono xestomizwntas megalofwna tin frasi pou me trantaxe- ti tin ithela egw tin zwi? Emeina na se koitaw! Se poion apeuthinosun? Se auton pou erxotan na stin parei h' se auton pou stin edwse? H'perimenes apantisi apo kapoion apo emas sto dwmatio den ixera ti na apantisw- eniwsa oti eprepe na pw siggnwmi , emeina apla kai se epsaxna ma den se evlepa, evlepa mono ton karkino kai tin frikti tu opsi! Koitaxa olus tus allus sto dwmatio, kanenas den antedrase mallon kanenas den se evlepe! Meta apo dio vradia irthes kai me kamarwnes enw stoliza to dentro, krifokoitazes ...xarika pou to ekanes isun panta kirios nomizes pws den se eixa dei alla se eida, den fovithika- katalava...to epomeno prwi mou anakoinwsan oti eixes figei... simera deka xronia meta irthes episkepsi stin skepsi mou... Zise su fwnaze i psixi su sto B' pagkosmio, "Ξενή βούρα!! "se prostaxe, san antikrises to vuno me ta ptwmata! "Γιατί είμαι εγώ γέρος κόρη?", apantises stin kori su otan su eipe kateva apo to ampeli geros anthrwpos tha ktipiseis...Vlepw tus pappudes sto vagoni! Auto les na skeutuntai kai autoi? Auto tha skeutome kai egw? Ti psaxnume kai giati den to vriskume pappu?
H etuixeia ...kai poia einai auti diladi i eutixeia, ti einai poios tin dimiurgise? H etimologia tis lexis eu + tixi= kali tixi, kali tixi einai na exw 5 daktila sto kathe xeri, matia, autia kai podia pou na duleuun?Einai na exw, stegi, filus, oikogeneia? Enas anapiros, orfanos astegos, erimitis einai katadikasmenos stin mh eutixeia dld? Amfivallw! Arnume! Poio einai to metro autis kai poios to orizei? Mipws o kathenas orizei to diko tu metro? Tote giati iparxun lexeis opws metro kai sigrkisi? poios tis epinohse? Afu iparxun - ifistantai h'dihstantai?
Zwi- thanatos- eutixeia -distixeia- agapi- misos- tixi- atixia ola iparxun - tautoxrona, parallila! Poios tis gennise poios tis anathrepse, me poia eikona tis vaftise kai epeita ekripse to prwtotipo? Exei simasia ti exw telika h' ti den exw? H' eimai to ipoloipo sto opoio akrovatw? Ti esti theos ti mh theos kai ti to anameso tus- mipws peri anamesu prokeite? Mipws eimaste oloi akrovates sto anameso tu ipoloipu me koino to mikro - megalo mas keno?
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